Death, Hate, Cry!!!

This is a place for me to vent about life so, most of it may seem depressing!!!


Bitch from hell!!!
bleedinghate94
Well, i'm officially sick and tired of my stupid as bitch of a chemistry teacher. Either she needs to get layed or she needs to get some damn meds for her bipolar ass.

Life In Chains!!!!
bleedinghate94

Do you think that it's right for us to be tied down by out parents when it involves our own things? Well officially my grandfather has lost his fricking mind. He trashed my room just because it wasn't perfectly clean. I have a life so what the hell does he think???? He sits at the house and watches t.v. all damn day!!!!!!

Well I gotta go for now!!!

Peace out peoples!!!



Bailing Hay For the First Time
bleedinghate94
      Today is the first day that I get to learn how to bail hay up at Sharon Sullivan's farm, up the road from the house, hopefully, Derreck will be there. I know I didn't get to talk to him much, but what little bit we did talk was pretty cool. He's nice, he's good looking, and he has his own transportation to get back in forth from Hamilton to Glen Allen. One think I don't know is if he's single or if he has a girlfriend. I'm kind of hoping he doesn't. I'd like to get to know him better. He seems like a pretty good from what I have been told by Sharon. I guess i'll find out after school whether or not he'll be there. Well, I don't have much else to say, except, i'm looking forward to going to work this evening.

The Last Day of the First Week!!!
bleedinghate94
Here it is Friday afternoon and it's almost over. It's been an awesome day and now i'm sitting in ACCESS class enjoying my time doing my work (being ahead that is) and hanging out with Kayla and Paco. This day, honestly, can't get any better.

Just another day...
bleedinghate94
Well, as another day goes, it's pretty good so far. I'm tired of people bitching about everything and creating drama, but otherwise it's pretty good.

Some guys in this hell hole have got to learn to keep their mouths shut too. They know damn well that Jessica, Chasidy, and I will beat the living hell out of them for running their mouths bout Jordy.

Well, I know this is short, but gotta go drive. Bye for now.

(intet emne)
bleedinghate94
      Some days I feel like i'm watching what's supposed to be my life from the outside. It feels like there is some higher power controlling me like a character in a video game. Every one tries to make my descisions for me. They all try to control me by telling me i'm a failure, i'm not ready to do the things I want to do, I'm to young to begin a life. I've got news for them. I may only be 15 years old, but in those 15 years I have seen and experienced more than any of their wonderful, rich, sheltered lives will ever see or experience.

     How many of them, do you think, have had their single mother drunk and pissed off, choking them up against a wall? How many of them have had their older sister beat the living hell out of them for 11 years and get away with it? Tell me how many of these, so called, "wonderful" kids really do what they say they do. The "good" kids get freedom. While the rest of us, who are thought to be of as "bad", get nothing, but the life of a prisoner. Us children that sit here and study our asses off for what we hope to acheive in life are known as bad. While the rich, over-privaliged, ass holes in todays society get away with any thing and every thing. Well fuck it!!! I'm sick and tired of society taking over.

From today on, I rule my own damn life. Let those power-hungry bastards tell me otherwise, and i'll tell them to kiss my happy little ass. My life is my own to run, not yours. So, from today on, I will achieve my own goals, hopes, and experiences without society and governmant officials to say I can't.



Writer's Block: Back to the future
bleedinghate94
If you were 12 and could see yourself now, do you think you'd be happy or disappointed, and why?

If I was 12 and could see myself now I'd be very happy. I'm not doing drugs (any more) and i'm actually letting people help me with my problems instead of keeping them bottled up.

Writer's Block: Turn and face the strain
bleedinghate94
What is the biggest major life change you've made in the past five years? Do you think it was positive, negative, or neutral?

The biggest life change i've made in the past 5 years is.... Moving to Alabama with my grandparents, away from my mom, 2 sister, the rest of my family, and all of my friends. I believe this was a negative change being I don't get to see my mother, and baby sister, but only about twice a year.

Guten Tag meine liebt!!!
bleedinghate94
Wie geht es dir? Ich hoffe, daß ihr Tag geht gut voran. Ich entschuldige mich, wenn es nicht ist.

Mein Tag geht ziemlich gut. Ich finde es sehr interessant, daß die Schulen Systems ein Schreiben Test am Ende des Jahres.

Tschau

Alex!
bleedinghate94
Your word so soft;
I loved you;
Your hold so gentle;
I loved you;
Your lips like silk;
I loved you!

You pull me hard against you;
I'm afraid of you;
You kiss me hard;
I'm afraid of you;
You don't let me go;
I'm afraid of you!

You force yourself onto me;
I'm terrified;
You steal my jeans;
I'm terrified;
You take me;
I'm terrified!

You haunt my nightmares;
I hate you;
You show up every time I close my eyes;
I hate you;
You own a part of me that should not be yours;
I hate you!

You are a monster;
Alex;
You are my own personal boogeyman;
Alex;
And i'm not afraid of you anymore;
Alex!


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